Inglés

What's my future? I mean, I'm not sure about anything but  I can't leave my present. I need changes but I'm scare of new lifestyles. I'm writing in English and I can't speak perfect Spanish.Maybe I'm an idiot but my mind is being stressed by too much information. I would like to learn to hear me and I would like to understand myself. The worst thing is that I understand myself but I don't want think what I'm thinking about. Life is easy but I make it too difficult. It's time to lose on  mistake sea but I'm terrify about wrong ways, I'm afraid of fall. I should progress but I'm OK right now. What's my problem? I think I am.